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Friday, June 09, 2006
6:00 AM
haiz... have u ever felt that no one actually totally understands u? i mean like... there are ppl in the world who understands u in another sort of UNDERSTAND but its just not that sort of UNDERSTANDING u are looking for.. well anyway i dunno if u understand what i mean but yah... never mind... i guess i shall just accept that fact lah... i dun want go think so much anymore... otherwise i dunno what will become of the state of my mind... NEVER MIND...
just feel like getting out of this stifling place... away to somewhere else.. maybe to new zealand to dance.. or to camp amigo.. i am SUPPOSED to go for camp...=X how i wish i can... right now.. this very very moment... i wish i can go to changi right this moment and join pam, joanne, cheryl, kailin, shauna and all the other ppl from the different networks... and i can be on log team and have so much fun!!! haiz... the holiday had to spoil it all.. damnation... oh thats a new term i learnt from the book i am reading called Peter Raven Under Fire.. it's pretty interesting.. wad with all the sea adventures and romance...=) hahaz... finished 3/4 of the book in 2 days!!! =) and it is like so thick... nvm...
sometimes i wish i had a pair of wings which can take me to my own world.. u noe, where there are no worries and problems plagueing u... where everyone is happy and all that... sigh.. where am i going to find that place? or when can my world be like that? i guess i can only seek solace in dancing... just throw me a piece of music and i can dance my way thru the night.. never have to come back to reality again... that will be the best thing that can happen to me right this very moment...
so why ain't it happening to me now?!?!??!?!?!?!??!? i dunno wad i can say to make u understand... many things are not the way it seems.. but if u want to think it that way then fine with me.. i have nothing to say... u all can leave me alone and let me wallow in my own misery... u don't have to care abt me.. i dun care too... my life is in a mess.. totally ****ed up..